December 23, 2009

Cuti Cuti di JB..

emmm...tetiba lokong ade pojek wiring plak so plan nk blk JB Kismas ni di tunda pd Isnin, but b4 that kami blk TotLau dulu..mak soh tgk kan mesin basuh n plug kat umah..rosak kot? lg pon abah soh blk, nk tgk haku nie..amacam, sihat ke dok..fuyoooo, abah sayang haku weiiiii hehehheee...
26hb nie besday Adik..tarikh keramat tu...mcm2 musibah melanda bumi date tu kan? tu yg Adik kate x bape best..tingat tsunami..gempa bumi..entah gunung berapi mayon meletup time tu? ala, mungkin itu 1 kebetulan...hanya Allah yang tau..
pada kronies smua, jgn kol upis ya..Mak iTi cuti until new year 2010! msg pon time upis je melantak murtabak singapore, kacang phol,cendol dpn court mamot tu (mmg best le chikmin),mee rebuss aji wahid,abc special, laksa johor da way jgn terserempak dgn bos sudaaaa..dia ade meting di hotel the zon tu ha..dgn KPP(K) n PP(K1):p
p/s: pada yg blum hupdate blog tu, rajin2 kan lah...jgn dh tumbuh pokok bwg pulokkk...(Juls- ko mmg rajin hupdate even just a pic hahahaha...)

December 17, 2009

Nothing much to write..

emm..dh ujung2 taun ni upis cam kene langor dek garuda. smua officer sibok dok meting tuk RMK10 ni haaa..then cuti2 ujung taun plak..mengong jap haku kt upis heheheh..(tandok setan).

haku??? nk cuti cemaner, gaji dh kene potong byr duit umah daa...skang zaman jimat cermat a.k.a kedekot tahap dewa..(dlm kedekot2 tu bli gak kain kt KAMDAR, ni smua kak ena kodoks tu punye pasal)..lokong pun asek wayering je..kecik2 pon dia pegi, demi masa depan..(sayaaaaang abg tauu) tingai le bini dia sorang2 kt umah kira cicak2 yg berlari gatai atas siling tu,cehhhh...nk mengawan pon, tmpt len la..bikin panessss je!

sekian laporan dari celeberiti hebat cam haku ni haaa...adiyossss!

p/s: emmm..nk forward cuti or masuk GCR????

December 09, 2009

sebijik dgn apa yg haku ur better read it!

By Vita Alligood

Chances are, you know someone who is struggling with infertility. More than five million people of childbearing age in the United States experience infertility. Yet, as a society, we are woefully uninformed about how to best provide emotional support for our loved ones during this painful time.Infertility is, indeed, a very painful struggle. The pain is similar to the grief over losing a loved one, but it is unique because it is a recurring grief. When a loved one dies, he isn't coming back. There is no hope that he will come back from the dead. You must work through the stages of grief, accept that you will never see this person again, and move on with your life.The grief of infertility is not so cut and dry. Infertile people grieve the loss of the baby that they may never know. They grieve the loss of that baby who would have had mommy's nose and daddy's eyes. But, each month, there is the hope that maybe that baby will be conceived after all. No matter how hard they try to prepare themselves for bad news, they still hope that this month will be different. Then, the bad news comes again, and the grief washes over the infertile couple anew. This process happens month after month, year after year. It is like having a deep cut that keeps getting opened right when it starts to heal.

As the couple moves into infertility treatments, the pain increases while the bank account depletes. Most infertility treatments involve using hormones, which alter the user's moods. (That statement is like calling a lion a cat-my husband would tell you that the side effect is insanity!) The tests are invasive and embarrassing to both parties, and you feel like the doctor has taken over your bedroom. And for all of this discomfort, you pay a lot of money. Infertility treatments are expensive, and most insurance companies do not cover the costs. So, in addition to the pain of not conceiving a baby each month, the couple pays out anywhere from $300 to five figures, depending upon the treatment used.A couple will eventually resolve the infertility problem in one of three ways:* They will eventually conceive a baby.* They will stop the infertility treatments and choose to live without children.* They will find an alternative way to parent, such as by adopting a child or becoming a foster parent.Reaching a resolution can take years, so your infertile loved ones need your emotional support during this journey. Most people don't know what to say, so they wind up saying the wrong thing, which only makes the journey so much harder for their loved ones. Knowing what not to say is half of the battle to providing support.

Don't Tell Them to Relax
Everyone knows someone who had trouble conceiving but then finally became pregnant once she "relaxed." Couples who are able to conceive after a few months of "relaxing" are not infertile. By definition, a couple is not diagnosed as "infertile" until they have tried unsuccessfully to become pregnant for a full year. In fact, most infertility specialists will not treat a couple for infertility until they have tried to become pregnant for a year. This year weeds out the people who aren't infertile but just need to "relax." Those that remain are truly infertile.Comments such as "just relax" or "try going on a cruise" create even more stress for the infertile couple, particularly the woman. The woman feels like she is doing something wrong when, in fact, there is a good chance that there is a physical problem preventing her from becoming pregnant.These comments can also reach the point of absurdity. As a couple, my husband and I underwent two surgeries, numerous inseminations, hormone treatments, and four years of poking and prodding by doctors. Yet, people still continued to say things like, "If you just relaxed on a cruise . . ." Infertility is a diagnosable medical problem that must be treated by a doctor, and even with treatment, many couples will NEVER successfully conceive a child. Relaxation itself does not cure medical infertility.

Don't Minimize the Problem
Failure to conceive a baby is a very painful journey. Infertile couples are surrounded by families with children. These couples watch their friends give birth to two or three children, and they watch those children grow while the couple goes home to the silence of an empty house. These couples see all of the joy that a child brings into someone's life, and they feel the emptiness of not being able to experience the same joy.Comments like, "Just enjoy being able to sleep late . . . .travel . . etc.," do not offer comfort. Instead, these comments make infertile people feel like you are minimizing their pain. You wouldn't tell somebody whose parent just died to be thankful that he no longer has to buy Father's Day or Mother's Day cards. Losing that one obligation doesn't even begin to compensate for the incredible loss of losing a parent. In the same vein, being able to sleep late or travel does not provide comfort to somebody who desperately wants a child.

Don't Say There Are Worse Things That Could Happen
Along the same lines, don't tell your friend that there are worse things that she could be going through. Who is the final authority on what is the "worst" thing that could happen to someone? Is it going through a divorce? Watching a loved one die? Getting raped? Losing a job?Different people react to different life experiences in different ways. To someone who has trained his whole life for the Olympics, the "worst" thing might be experiencing an injury the week before the event. To someone who has walked away from her career to become a stay-at-home wife for 40 years, watching her husband leave her for a younger woman might be the "worst" thing. And, to a woman whose sole goal in life has been to love and nurture a child, infertility may indeed be the "worst" thing that could happen.People wouldn't dream of telling someone whose parent just died, "It could be worse: both of your parents could be dead." Such a comment would be considered cruel rather than comforting. In the same vein, don't tell your friend that she could be going through worse things than infertility.

Don't Say They Aren't Meant to Be Parents
One of the cruelest things anyone ever said to me is, "Maybe God doesn't intend for you to be a mother." How incredibly insensitive to imply that I would be such a bad mother that God felt the need to divinely sterilize me. If God were in the business of divinely sterilizing women, don't you think he would prevent the pregnancies that end in abortions? Or wouldn't he sterilize the women who wind up neglecting and abusing their children? Even if you aren't religious, the "maybe it's not meant to be" comments are not comforting. Infertility is a medical condition, not a punishment from God or Mother Nature.

Don't Ask Why They Aren't Trying IVF
In vitro fertilization (IVF) is a method in which the woman harvests multiple eggs, which are then combined with the man's sperm in a petri dish. This is the method that can produce multiple births. People frequently ask, "Why don't you just try IVF?" in the same casual tone they would use to ask, "Why don't you try shopping at another store?"There are many reasons why a couple would choose not to pursue this option. Here are a few of them.IVF is Expensive with Low OddsOne cycle of IVF is very expensive. With all of the hype in the news, many people assume that IVF is a sure thing when, in fact, the odds of success for each cycle are low. Most couples cannot afford to try for one month, much less for multiple times. Considering that it also costs a significant amount of money to adopt a baby, many couples opt for the "sure thing" rather then risking their money on much lower odds.IVF is Physically TaxingUndergoing IVF treatments is very rigorous. The woman must inject shots into her thigh daily to cause her ovaries to superovulate. The drugs used are very taxing on the woman, and they can cause her to be become extremely emotional.IVF Raises Ethical IssuesIronically, couples who undergo IVF to become parents may have to selectively abort one or more fetuses if multiple eggs are fertilized. Many couples cannot bring themselves to abort a baby when they have worked so hard to become parents. If the couple chooses not to selectively abort, they run the risk of multiple births.Don't Offer Unsolicited Opinions If They Are Trying IVFOn the flip side of the coin, don't offer unsolicited advice to your friends who do choose to try IVF. For many couples, IVF is the only way they will ever give birth to a baby. This is a huge decision for them to make, for all of the reasons I outlined above.If the couple has resolved any ethical issues, don't muddy the waters. IVF is a gray area in many ethical circles, and many of our moral leaders don't yet know how to answer the ethical questions that have arisen from this new technology. If the couple has resolved these issues already, you only make it harder by raising the ethical questions again. Respect their decision, and offer your support. If you can't offer your support due to ethical differences of opinion, then say nothing.A couple who chooses the IVF route has a hard, expensive road ahead, and they need your support more than ever. The hormones are no cakewalk, and the financial cost is enormous. Your friend would not be going this route if there were an easier way, and the fact that she is willing to endure so much is further proof of how much she truly wants to parent a child. The hormones will make her more emotional, so offer her your support and keep your questions to yourself.

Don't Play Doctor
Once your infertile friends are under a doctor's care, the doctor will run them through numerous tests to determine why they aren't able to conceive. There a numerous reasons that a couple may not be able to conceive. Here are a few of them:

* Blocked fallopian tubes
* Cysts* Endometriosis
* Low hormone levels
* Low "normal form" sperm count
* Low progesterone level
* Low sperm count
* Low sperm motility
* Thin uterine walls

Infertility is a complicated problem to diagnose, and reading an article or book on infertility will not make you an "expert" on the subject. Let your friends work with their doctor to diagnose and treat the problem. Your friends probably already know more about the causes and solutions of infertility than you will ever know.You may feel like you are being helpful by reading up on infertility, and there is nothing wrong with learning more about the subject. The problem comes when you try to "play doctor" with your friends. They already have a doctor with years of experience in diagnosing and treating the problem. They need to work with and trust their doctor to treat the problem. You only complicate the issue when you throw out other ideas that you have read about. The doctor knows more about the causes and solutions; let your friends work with their doctor to solve the problem.

Don't Be Crude
It is appalling that I even have to include this paragraph, but some of you need to hear this-Don't make crude jokes about your friend's vulnerable position. Crude comments like "I'll donate the sperm" or "Make sure the doctor uses your sperm for the insemination" are not funny, and they only irritate your friends.

Don't Complain About Your Pregnancy
This message is for pregnant women-Just being around you is painful for your infertile friends. Seeing your belly grow is a constant reminder of what your infertile friend cannot have. Unless an infertile women plans to spend her life in a cave, she has to find a way to interact with pregnant women. However, there are things you can do as her friend to make it easier.The number one rule is DON'T COMPLAIN ABOUT YOUR PREGNANCY. I understand from my friends that, when you are pregnant, your hormones are going crazy and you experience a lot of discomfort, such as queasiness, stretch marks, and fatigue. You have every right to vent about the discomforts to any one else in your life, but don't put your infertile friend in the position of comforting you.Your infertile friend would give anything to experience the discomforts you are enduring because those discomforts come from a baby growing inside of you. When I heard a pregnant woman complain about morning sickness, I would think, "I'd gladly throw up for nine straight months if it meant I could have a baby." When a pregnant woman would complain about her weight gain, I would think, "I would cut off my arm if I could be in your shoes."I managed to go to baby showers and hospitals to welcome my friends' new babies, but it was hard. Without exception, it was hard. Stay sensitive to your infertile friend's emotions, and give her the leeway that she needs to be happy for you while she cries for herself. If she can't bring herself to hold your new baby, give her time. She isn't rejecting you or your new baby; she is just trying to work her way through her pain to show sincere joy for you. The fact that she is willing to endure such pain in order to celebrate your new baby with you speaks volumes about how much your friendship means to her.(ini yg selalu terjadi pada haku tau..sedey sgt2)

Don't Treat Them Like They Are Ignorant
For some reason, some people seem to think that infertility causes a person to become unrealistic about the responsibilities of parenthood. I don't follow the logic, but several people told me that I wouldn't ache for a baby so much if I appreciated how much responsibility was involved in parenting.Let's face it-no one can fully appreciate the responsibilities involved in parenting until they are, themselves, parents. That is true whether you successfully conceived after one month or after 10 years. The length of time you spend waiting for that baby does not factor in to your appreciation of responsibility. If anything, people who have been trying to become pregnant longer have had more time to think about those responsibilities. They have also probably been around lots of babies as their friends started their families.Perhaps part of what fuels this perception is that infertile couples have a longer time to "dream" about what being a parent will be like. Like every other couple, we have our fantasies-my child will sleep through the night, would never have a tantrum in public, and will always eat his vegetables. Let us have our fantasies. Those fantasies are some of the few parent-to-be perks that we have-let us have them. You can give us your knowing looks when we discover the truth later.

Don't Gossip About Your Friend's Condition
Infertility treatments are very private and embarrassing, which is why many couples choose to undergo these treatments in secret. Men especially are very sensitive to letting people know about infertility testing, such as sperm counts. Gossiping about infertility is not usually done in a malicious manner. The gossipers are usually well-meaning people who are only trying to find out more about infertility so they can help their loved ones.Regardless of why you are sharing this information with someone else, it hurts and embarrasses your friend to find out that Madge the bank teller knows what your husband's sperm count is and when your next period is expected. Infertility is something that should be kept as private as your friend wants to keep it. Respect your friend's privacy, and don't share any information that your friend hasn't authorized.

Don't Push Adoption (Yet)
Adoption is a wonderful way for infertile people to become parents. (As an adoptive parent, I can fully vouch for this!!) However, the couple needs to work through many issues before they will be ready to make an adoption decision. Before they can make the decision to love a "stranger's baby," they must first grieve the loss of that baby with Daddy's eyes and Mommy's nose. Adoption social workers recognize the importance of the grieving process. When my husband and I went for our initial adoption interview, we expected the first question to be, "Why do you want to adopt a baby?" Instead, the question was, "Have you grieved the loss of your biological child yet?" Our social worker emphasized how important it is to shut one door before you open another.You do, indeed, need to grieve this loss before you are ready to start the adoption process. The adoption process is very long and expensive, and it is not an easy road. So, the couple needs to be very sure that they can let go of the hope of a biological child and that they can love an adopted baby. This takes time, and some couples are never able to reach this point. If your friend cannot love a baby that isn't her "own," then adoption isn't the right decision for her, and it is certainly not what is best for the baby.Mentioning adoption in passing can be a comfort to some couples. (The only words that ever offered me comfort were from my sister, who said, "Whether through pregnancy or adoption, you will be a mother one day.") However, "pushing" the issue can frustrate your friend. So, mention the idea in passing if it seems appropriate, and then drop it. When your friend is ready to talk about adoption, she will raise the issue herself.So, what can you say to your infertile friends? Unless you say "I am giving you this baby," there is nothing you can say that will erase their pain. So, take that pressure off of yourself. It isn't your job to erase their pain, but there is a lot you can do to lesson the load. Here are a few ideas.

Let Them Know That You Care
The best thing you can do is let your infertile friends know that you care. Send them cards. Let them cry on your shoulder. If they are religious, let them know you are praying for them. Offer the same support you would offer a friend who has lost a loved one. Just knowing they can count on you to be there for them lightens the load and lets them know that they aren't going through this alone.

Remember Them on Mother's Day
With all of the activity on Mother's Day, people tend to forget about women who cannot become mothers. Mother's Day is an incredibly painful time for infertile women. You cannot get away from it-There are ads on the TV, posters at the stores, church sermons devoted to celebrating motherhood, and all of the plans for celebrating with your own mother and mother-in-law.Mother's Day is an important celebration and one that I relish now that I am a mother. However, it was very painful while I was waiting for my baby. Remember your infertile friends on Mother's Day, and send them a card to let them know you are thinking of them. They will appreciate knowing that you haven't "forgotten" them.

Support Their Decision to Stop Treatments
No couple can endure infertility treatments forever. At some point, they will stop. This is an agonizing decision to make, and it involves even more grief. Even if the couple chooses to adopt a baby, they must still first grieve the loss of that baby who would have had mommy's nose and daddy's eyes.Once the couple has made the decision to stop treatments, support their decision. Don't encourage them to try again, and don't discourage them from adopting, if that is their choice. Once the couple has reached resolution (whether to live without children, adopt a child, or become foster parents), they can finally put that chapter of their lives behind them. Don't try to open that chapter again.

MC oh MC...

this month, i've got MC and MC..cough n flu wont leave me alone,arghhhh! itchy! drooling! making my BP go up and above the normal pace..

planning a vacation to JB (tanah tumpah darah lokong) for i week, but i dun submit the form yet. will my boss willing enuf to approve it? (crossing finger), i hope this vacation will slow down my high BP,dont want to take the pill if it happen...NO!

p/s: atukchiminie, nnt kalu dh konfem nk g JB kite koling2 ye..kang wrong info lg cam raye qurban aritu huhuhu...x sabar nk tgk umah hang yg dh siap renovate tu ha!(bule tiru design kuang3x)

December 04, 2009

Lama x hupdate...

slmt hari raya qurban..

tgk lah taun dpn, kalu ader reseki rasa2 cam nk gak wat korban nie

skang ni otak haku messy cam gambo kt atas tu ha..mcm2 mende berlaku dlm 2 bln nie, tu psl le haku jrg update. ko jgn marah ye Juls? ko mmg le rajin, chikminie tu selang sbln kot baru hupdate, bkn takat sawang..pokok bwg pon dh tumboh hahahahahha!

p/s: ini smua ketentuan dari ILAHI, ameen.

November 16, 2009

Hujung Minggu Ku...

ate nye ini la keroje ppan yg x de anak...dok pjm anak org, buat main2 hahahahah. sambil di bantu oleh sidekick setia Kak Ena Kodoks. that week adik jihan si Aimee kahwen so, mamaQiss ni dh sah2 bz jd haku dgn rasa penuh t/jwb (eleh...) bersetuju utk jd babysitter for that weekend.

nilah adik si Qiss, Qimie yg haku dok uli pipi nye..tembam siot, rasa cam nk geget tp si Qimie ni dh jd sleeping boy..tido je kerojenye! bila dh rasa nie baru le ku tau betapa letey nye menjadi ibu kpd 2 anak, kureng waktu tido tp haku x kira..haku nk jugak anak kan JUls?!!!..manala tau bule jd kurus murus awwwwww...

oleh sb kak ena kodoks tulun haku jaga all the babies, so haku upah dia mkn makanan tradisional pahang+N9=sambal ati yg amat pedas giler tp sodap (sejak bile haku mkn pedas giler nie ha?) sempat jugalah org tua tu layan 2 dvd fav haku tu haa..

October 27, 2009

Mak iTi Chicken Rice

(menu Ahad)

Sizziling Duck Meat with Maggie

(Menu Isnin..thanks Mak Enchik sb banja itik Panggang)

p/s: picture can describe all...erkk,alhamdulliah.

October 22, 2009

U ask FOR it Juls...

> haku dh tgk nie..

mlm td haku detin gan lokong tgk cite best nie sepatutnya release time father's day, baru kene beb! g lah nonton..then korang tentu lebey syg ayah/abah/papa/dady korang seyyyy..

> i cant wait to see..20/11/09

oh jacob..fall for me pls..fall for me arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! kak ena kodok jgn x jd sudaaa ek..haku bako UKAS tu nnt!

> haku ngidam nk mkn nie...

perghhhh...sedap giler sambal hati nie siottt (sendirik masak sendirik puji, kelassss)tp x campur tempoyak sb lokong x suke (just imegen if i put it...sepiok nasi pon x cukup)

>membesar bagai 'johan'

skang mulot dh bising tp ckp style jepun.. sepatah haram haku x phm hehehhe. aritu mama dia bwk p ofis..dh besor anak dara jihan ek, bile nk terima menantu?? hahahahhaa...

p/s: awat x bule bukak blog ko Juls? pe lg yg ko modified to minah oiii...

September 29, 2009

selamat Hari raya Kronies!!

selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin dari kami sekeluarga.

meh le rasa nasi beriani koi ni haaa...(alamak pringle tu bikin iklan lak)

September 11, 2009

Selamat berbuka...

Ni la menu kami smlm..fav lokong tau, ketam berchili!

Ni menu fav haku lak..sprt biasa bbq lamb with veggie(mak_iTi style)

p/s: mak aii..bajet lari la..x bule nk kejo dh. haku dok borong kuih raye huhuhuhu
thn ni haku mogok buat kuih raya bule?

September 10, 2009

Theme song

dis mornin while i'm driving to work, suddenly i herd song that use to be my fav. then my memori recall every relationship i hv and i noticed they will alwys be a theme movie hehehhe :P (pahsan sungguh!)

1. lokong relakku pujuk=spider

2. shat this love=maroon 5

3. rend belaian jiwa=innuendo

4. Nyah if u are the one=daniel beddingfield

5. Bro Man sendu dijiwaku= arrow

6. Flirts rindu serindu rindunya= spoon

7. MCairey janji tinggal janji=KRU

wow, kalu wat movie..smuanye 7 filem wakakakaaaa!

September 09, 2009

Terawikh oh Terawikh

mlm td upis haku wat terawikh n sumbangan raya utk N1 (PAP)..ramai gak yg dtg tgklah barisan biasalah, after dpt sumbangan terus chow..adela 2 saf lelaki n ppuan utk solat terawikh hehehhe...sodap bacaan pak imam tu ha..sayu je haku bile dgr..rasa cam diri sgt kerdil n x mo buat dosa lg..kunun2 la insap kejap!

antara kengkawan upis yg hadir..UKAS x de tp KP dia ade dtg tau Sno oiii! menu byk jenis x dpt rase smua sb memasing memenuhkan pinggan cam seploh taun x mkn..angin haku tau~P

mak aiii...meh posing sekejap, camera 1,2,3 action!

September 03, 2009

selamat sambot Ramadhan..

hepi ramadhan to all of my kronie's..
jgn sopin sakan tau..bajet tetap bajet!

August 21, 2009

Welcome to the world, Kimie!

the mother & the sister...

the baby...Muhamad Alif Haqimie

the 'minah kepoh' one....muahahahha!

Farewell party For UKAS

sedey nye tgk kengkawan smua dh pindah..but what can we do? tugas adalah tetap tugas. Berkhidmat untuk negara...kronies aku smua dh pindah, I'm totaly alone...

all the besday girl...

Ni la..'ungas2' utk UKAS muahahahah...

Memori bersama...

p/s: aku doakan korang semua beroleh kejayaan n kecemerlangan di tempat baru.
by day way, we still 'share' the minister 2gether,hehehhee..

Achik n Me..besday party

"achik, kite sebaya kan? sape? ala, untie CT n achik laaa...sama2 4 thn k?"
(sama2 gemoks,demmmm....)

"amboi2 mamat, awat sengih cam kerang mati anak? kemain ek...mcm dia
nye besday party lak..acececece"

August 20, 2009

after long 'pause'...

yuhuuu...sorile kengkawan aku lama x hupdate (ala, korang pon sama gak..lg byk 'spider web'). sebnornya x de mood nk hupdate..chewahhhh! the truth is, i found new game..EVONY n get hooked by the 1st very time consuming game, so i've been 'underwater' during that da way, my parent come here b4 attending my young bro convo in perlis.

i'm so happy they came here..n when i'm happy, i LOOOOVE to cook! up there is my Abah fav fud..1 of them really hehehhe..biasa lah, 'jawa dish'. b4 that we hv dinner at bagan lalang..fuhhhh, terangkat siottt!...

my cookies..oat cookies frm worthy. taste good..n full ur stomach, good for diet ppl. lokong said it tasted like 'kuih raya' :P

coz lokong out station last nite, i order 'my comfort fud'..but the delivery come late (piss me of a little bit) around 1 hrs. and for soothing my anger dominos gave the pizza for FREEEEEEEE..(ben stiler in bedtime stories) n 1 free pizza for up coming order muahahahah...

p/s: no more kronies here...miss them all sob..sob..sob..

August 03, 2009

bile dh buhsan terLampau!

p/s: itula keje haku sepanjang wekend, cet podaaahh....

July 23, 2009


p/s: semoga Mck Kodok's panjang umur, muroh reseki n bahagia donia n akhirat. ameen.

July 13, 2009

belated besday to lokong

tu belated besday present for lokong. ade lah, x bule kasi tau..mamaQiss yg pilihkan berdasarkan bajet haku la mek oiii...

then, we ate 'dash dush dish spaggeti'=campak2 spaggeti...janji kenyang!

p/s: lokong, love u sooo much!

July 10, 2009



July 09, 2009

emotional breakdown(bleeding inside)

after 2 week of 'agonisation'..deep drawn emotion..lifeless brain, i'm come back to breath to the surface. jumbo mambo feeling toward people..watery eyes..sensitive (so alike bella swan),i'm gaining back my control. this emotion hurting me so much inside. i dun knw wat trigger it! i try to soothe my mind but it wont go away. clinging to me like sticky gum below ur lovely shoe..yukkkk!

for 2 week i can't control my mind n heart. wonder what i want most in life. what if all this is not enough for me? wat if, i want more than i can hv? yup, how ungrateful i was back then. on my trip to KL to buy lokong lense, my mind recall back my relationship. it goes back to 10 yrs ago, during my 'childish'but hepi yrs at kuantan. how i control the freedom life as a student, and then a little lost by it..without my parent eyes watching every move. those happy day wont come again. it past.gone. what all my frenz doin rite now? successfull? having children? getting rich? die?

all of them give me something to remember and gain some experience to face the future. i kept on guessing what happen if i still with that boy..or that guys or that man. if i still in food and beverage course..cont to study wat i like most..or still working at my hometown.what will i become rite now? weird kind of like a projector workin in my head.

then my hunger for lokong is soo deep. waving like an angry ocean. hot with every passionate lover know. i'm obsessed with him but i can't 'connect' with him that weeks. he's not in the rite mind to reach me there. yeah, it confused him more n more about his wife. insane? maybe hahahhaha..struggle to become normal again. is this depression? oh my...i dun want that.

so many thing i want to buy but the 'winter pocket' is tight. using for my next project. but this is mega sale month, elloooo? can some1 lend me more many..i still can't erased the red h/bag at parkson in my sooOOOOoooooOOOooooo ME!


July 06, 2009

July 03, 2009

My Weird Cravings List

- in love too much with lokong..(cam le dia kt obersee, ari2 windu sob..sob..sob..)

- giler nk tgk romantik movie (lunch ni nk p equin carik dvd)

- mimpi edward tiap2 mlm...fall in love gan jacob..berangan candle lite dinner gan dorang..then jd heroin for they new movie..(move over kristen steward heheheh,demmm..)

- craving nk tgk hero/actor injured/ hensem they half naked,emmmm ,delicious
(lucas OTH,Dean Cain,Tom Welling,leonardao,val kilmer)

- giler google..(sket2 nk 24/7)

- into spicy food now..( i know2..dulu kan x tahan pedas)

- addicted to MPH..(more books i guess, twilight saga already finish. i need new 'addicted books')

- nk sushi king...uwaaaaa (chili's x lepas2 lg,cett..)

sekian terima kasih!

June 30, 2009

My bz June..

emm...rumahku di kg dilanda musibah..ribu topan sehingga atap umah tercabot, alhamdulillah parent haku x ape2. rabu n kamis tu haku amek El, segera pulang ke kg utk membantu apa2 yg patut. teruk gak ler..mcm banjir. sian abah, penat dia dok kemas nnt. tp haku dh bincang dgn siblings..dorang ikot turn bantu mane yg patut. skang nie Oya n Adam ade kt umah tu ha..dok kemas pe2 yg patut. Welfare x dtg2 lg..kate nk jenguk nk kasi bantuan kewangan? tu le, sbnye parent haku ni tua..dorang ingat bule le wat sewenang2 nye..main2 ek? x pe2..haku dh soh si Oya tu 'maki' sket pe yg patut..ckp elok, x mo dgr..nk kene maki dulu baru tinga tu cair kot? kalu perlu send je email kt KSN nu ha..padan muka!

hepi besday gak kt Lokong n Abah..x sempat nk carik adiah kt dorang sb musibah yg menimpa..insyaAllah, adiah akan menyusul :P (mega sale beb...sakan le haku)

settle urusan di kg, bergegas haku blk ptj jumaat tu ade steno farewell party for 1 of us..+ belated besday nye ahli. dek kerna i'm incharged so, kene le hadir gak..lg pon sabtu ahad tu kene jd wakil parent utk majlis pertunangan sepupu haku yg dok gombak tu ha..

itu le hantaran dr pihak sepupu haku..mck dia yg kt s.alam tu buatkan, canteekkk..warne paberet haku tu ha (selain merah) x bape dgr discussion dorang..baper ribu? x tau gak..cuma mereka ni di'ikat' setahun setengah..(amboi Sno, awat hang lak yg sipu2? cet podahhh)

ha, tu le DOMOKs gan lokong haku..(eiii, x tahan tgk lokong sonyum malu2 gitu) mmg byk adegan lucu la yg buat kami x kering gusi tgk aksi si Domoks ni ha..kalu korang tgk, sebijik cam pelakon cina yg selalu ade dlm cite kunfu kanak2..perangai pon , ya ampun..mengada2..sibok ejek haku nie gemoks.."untie ct x npmk jln sb gemok'..weiii, sib baik haku x seligi pala botak dia tu ha...wat saket ati je!

nilah hantaran dr pihak perempuan..mmg byk..kami anto 5, mike balas 20 dulang! byk makanan..tu yg si Domoks suka lg, kenduri le kami smua bile smpai gmbk. homestay yg kami dodok tu mmg selesa..kt pokok sena..rumah 2 tingkat,3 bilik 2 rumah yg jual kt sini tu la..kecik but nice.

amek berkat, bule? muahahahha...sirih junjung x ori (smua plastik)......

p/s: bile entah haku nk coti2 ke C.H nie? windu nk hirup udara yg segar n nyaman di sana..